Harsh Truths

I want to believe that this world is not bad
that this world is not cold
that even though I may be full of wounds and scars today
I can still believe that tomorrow will be a better day

I want to believe that you can change
I want to believe that you still can love
But its so hard
Trapped within your own thorns and old scars

You blindly hurt everyone around you
Breaking and cursing at all the hearts around you
I want to run far away
Back to the point of time when I was free

Free from you and your abuses
I am tired
My tears are enough to fill a sea
yet you still wouldn't be able to see
the hidden pain you caused

Reality can get so cold and cruel at times
Its so hard to try to get up every single time
Falling hurts beyond imagination
Every rejection stabs deeply

Sometimes, I just want to fade into nothing
So that I don't have to face you anymore
So that I don't have to face such a day anymore
So that I don't have to hurt like this anymore

Everything irritates me now

I hate today.

I am so sick of trying so hard, nothing comes out of it.

Nobody appreciates the amount of effort anyone puts in

My parents just assumes I slack the whole day

I keep trying and redoing but nothing comes out right

TODAY SUCKS!

Almost could see the end then I was sent tumbling back down to the start

Lost in my concept

Haven't start on my research

Still need to worry about about other modules and work

Need to sketch some more.

@$%&%$@

All I want want is some peace and quiet, thanks for ruining it.

I am seriously starting to hate the everything now.

Hate you, today.

Back to work

Temptation

Temptation is a sweet honey trap

slowly luring you in

Despite knowing the consequences

Despite knowing the outcome is fruitless

But you slowly get enslaved inside

As you are being slowly seduce

by the time you wake up

you are drowning

Regret, sadness, panic

all this feeling collide at one

resulting in grasping for survival

why do I always fall for it

knowing what pains it may me

Why do I always know that its fruitless

yet still try to hold on to that thread of hope

hoping for a miracle to happen

Am I too naive and foolish?

or perhaps just to weak willed?

maybe I haven't fall hard enough

cause I keep thinking about turning back time

its too late now

for regrets