Lovign "you"

When I love 

I have decided

I will love "You"

Whether you are male or female

Whether you are rich or poor

Whether you are good-looking or not

it doesn't matter

I will love "you"

thats more than enough 

for me

I don't care what the world say

I don't give a damn about the society

none of them matters

I would rather be loved 

by the one person I loved

than to be loved by the whole world

I only want to follow my heart

only "you" matter 

the most important person to me

Desperate Love

This love is so desperate

its going to tear us apart

but still

we are unable to let go

of each other's hand

I am scared

to love you

afraid that this isn't real

that its only a dream

You love me so much

its driving you insane

the passion burning in your eyes

the unspoken words

How fragile you treat me

so unsure of yourself

that your passion

would drive me away

I am scared

but so drawn to you

that passion

I could never understand

You try to control yourself

even though 

you would rather chain me

and lock me up 

somewhere

No one can ever find

so that I would only look at you

so that I would only think of you

so that I would be all yours

But thinking of me

you don't 

While I am selfish

unable to give you 

what you truly need

yet

also unable to let go 

of your hand

how long will this flames 

continue burning

This love that is so desperate

that its so sad...

Losing you

The thought of you going so far away
hurts so bad
that I can't breathe

I know that its foolish
to say
I can't live in a world without you

Because I know
and you know that
no one dies of a broken heart

But the world becomes unbearable
daily chores becomes a chore
every new day loses colour

My heart wouldn't stop aching
My mind wouldn't stop thinking about you
My eyes well up

I would become something less than a doll
one with a broken heart
left with only an empty shell

Trapped within that frozen time
tied down with all those memories
unable to move on....

2 sides of the coin

Life is like a coin

there are always 2 side

to every story

Like yours

Like mine

I flip a coin

Good mother

I flip it again

 Bad mum

One Side

Hate

Other Side

Love 

I don't know 

what to do with it

I struggle very long

with this coin in my pocket

Most of the time,

it roll so far away beyond reach

Rarely,

it brings me joy

I don't want to part with it

I don't want to not want it

But,

as a coin

it brings a heavy burden

Suffocating me

Making it hard for breathing

If I continue to carry it

the bad outweigh the good

No matter which side I ponder,

 I have to leave something behind

What will become of that lone star?

It began with a longing

that morphed into a wish

A need

more than anything

A lone star in that dark night sky

that kept me going

Loneliness and sadness

dragged me down all the time

but that star

that sad lone star

To protect

To cherish

To keep it safe

To keep me safe

All broken and torn down

yet so precious

more treasured than anything 

in the world

A simple, sad yet a foolish wish

So pure and innocent

All the prayers

one by one

every single day

pile up 

all for that single wish..