I just want to run

Stop!Shut up!
I don't want to hear anymore!
The sounds of rejection and cruel laughter.
It does nothing but act as hands to engulf me down into further darkness than I already in,
and my pathetic human nature does nothing
but grab hold of every spider thread of hope presented to me
Reality is just like that.
It takes every single hope and dreams you have
to destroy into pieces
then leave you to pick up yourself on your two feet
to carve out another road after a blood trailed fall....  

Depression

Why give people hope just to take it away? That is so harsh and so pain. I feel like being mean but that might result in me drowning in the river...Sigh.Seriously! It makes me so annoyed... It like having Yin Yang personality that always clash and tear the body apart...gosh.

Shopping for jobs

I feel like going crazy....I am hunting for jobs..without much success. Why in the world is make-up a must for females

Tension

....Tomorrow is the day. I really hope I do well for the exams. I am so scared...I really want to tell my parents that I really put all my effort and hard work into it. So please...stop being disappointed by eveything I do. I may have slack or been lazy along the way, but the stress, pressure and expectations are really piling up and getting into me. I couldn't take it so ya...I really pray very hard that I get the points I want, so will everyone.

Journey

Sigh...when there is a beginning, there is always an end. Everyone will go their differents routes that they choose. While me...its quite hard. I really wanted this particular path which they don't really have and my parents violently object to it. It was really hard. Its like I could finally see the light at the end of the tunnel but they just plonk me back down to square one to start all over again. Now I may have found my road but I off-track it always, wondering if I make the right choice. To makes matter worse, my values and this path that I want clash. I have no idea now. But life isn't going to yours anymore if you keep letting your parents decide and carve it out for you. So I have to quickly realised what I want and what is most impt before I regret it forever. :(

Red Thread

It is so cool thinking that you have this invisble red thread tied to your finger connnecting you and your future lover together. But now, marriage is very hard to maintain, don't you think so? Divorce is like the lastest treand among marriage couples now.But isn't it good to have someone showering you with unconditional love and having a "home" to go to. It is like after seacrhing and seacrhing for a place for so...so...so long and you finally found it. Perhaps its too much of human nature to only cherish things when it is too late. Or perhaps this whole "Love" thing is just another fairytale? Promises to stay forever are hard to keep, thats why a lot of people don't dare to take chances. Cause nobody can read the future but as the saying goes "no pain, no gain". Thats why those people who grab onto the opportunity are courageous. ^v^ There is no guarantee of anything or certainly of forever in the future. But isn't it also human nature to fall and learn from it? Nobody likes falling. But with each fall, we become stronger. Just make sure that you don't end up running away from that thing just cause of bad experience of things, it is not going to help you and quite unfair to the other party too.

Creating a blog

Okay.This is my first time creating a blog and,wow.I don't even know why I created it. Maybe cause I am so bored.