A chance

How?????????????? HOW??????

God give me a chance. But I am very scared to grab hold of it! ><
Okay, This is the problem. Not some insignificant spots or something like that....

Its a dress competition!!! ^^ I really want to try it out. To test my potential. Okay, I may not be very out-of-the-box, creative and all. That I know. Thats why I wanna give it a shot. To gain more experience and well, I don't know? Knowledge, perhaps?

Haiz.... Okay, I am NOT doing this for the price or anything. Which in truth, is only worth a pathetic $200-$300... =_=...for the winner,that is...

The theme is rather flexible. :) But I can't seem to find any aspirations, waiting for the "Eureka" moment while flipping though random stuff.

However, I feel need to go Chinatown to see if the cloth, colour and texture is available first. Damn...

Now, the trends is
Colour - Light neon colour (robin egg blue, tangerine orange), gentle pink, block colours
Fabric - Drapy (Synthetic kind), Sheer
Prints - Animal prints (Leopard prints, birds, butterfly )
Style - Flowy, see-through

Sourcing out for my aspiration now......urg.... tired...

I think i want to use a painting for aspiration...Problem? Cloth.
Plastic?

Actually, I quite like that idea. :)

Contend but not happy

There are a thousand words struck inside my head

that I want to say to you 

there are so many things that I want to do with my life

yet I am afraid

Realising that it is just not enough 

being struck behind these four walls

Kidding myself that I am content...

but I am not happy

my feet tingles 

wanting to run and dance

my hand filled with life

wanting to draw, swim and do so many things

my lungs aching

for the earthly fresh air 

Yet, I let my fear of change rule over me...

Spec

I LIKE this show!!! ^^ Its awesome! :)



Touma with her spec to be able to call up the spec people who have died and share their power is COOL!!!! :) But she threw it away!!!! >< I dun like! Thats the only point I don't agree with Sebumi! Touma uses her power for the good! so how could Sebumi criticize her powers. But its true. Humans don't need this kind of power. However, to fight Spec people, isn't it better to have SPEC too? Just as humans, its hard. Not impossible but very very very very tough.

I wanna watch the movie though... :(

Weary

Facebook? Twitter? Whatsapp?
Iphone? Notebook? E-book? Laptop? Samsung?

I am rather weary of it. Wanna talk to a friend? Go Facebook or Whatsapp.  Wanna share your thoughts? Go Facebook or Twitter. Wanna show something new? Facebook again and Tumblr.

I don't mean to criticize. I used to be a Facebook fan, addicted to my first computer game, Pet Society, for around 6 months or so. Even now, I can tell, I am hooked on my laptop. Trying to cut down to 2 hours a day, however that often depends on my mood.

Advanced technology is really awesome, from telegrams-telephone-skype-Internet(one of the greatest invention). Now you can stay in touch with pen pals and people from the other side of the world. Like globalisation, you get to explore beyond the boundaries of your country and gain knowledge so easily in just the palm of your hand. Varieties becomes unlimited and everything becomes so much easier just a click of button away.


Just as how technology diminished the distance of the world, it widens the distance between people.

The moment you step in the Mrt or bus, you can immediately spot a dozen of people with earphones on, eyes glued to the screen of their I-pad and phone. There is nothing wrong with that. Who wouldn't want to retreat into their own world having some entertainment rather than staring at the same scenery or dodging your neighbor's sleepy head?

Just that the world seemed to have gotten colder somehow. Everyone seemed so "busy". With their blackberries and all, making you feel like a gooseberry. People start to move in their own world, at their hurried pace, never stopping to breathe and just relax. They are too busy, in a hurry.
I wonder if anyone seen the forget-me-not blue sky streaked with slivery white clouds as the vibrant rays of the sun light up the world. Or the furious pattering of the rain blurring the vision of the thick glass, making you feel so glad that you are bone-dry in the bus.

In the bus, it makes me so tempted to use a needle and poke the bubble that people wrapped themselves in. The silence sometimes is so eerie, making you wonder if you are the only person "awake" in the bus, in both body and mind.

Boy Princess

I am so happy about the ending!!!! >< :D

 Prince Jed and Nicole can be together. At first, I only cared about their ending, DE, they are the main characters!

I was interested in the ending for  King/Prince Ghewin and Princess Rainy, they end up together after all. Awesome. :D Haha. He finally falls for Rainy as she wished and finally got the one-legged proposal that she wanted! Ghewin actually give up the throne so that he could marry her, so sweet. Last part so epic!!! Rainy threaten that if he didn't walk in to propose to her again, she would have brought guards to capture him and be her slave! Cute couple. ^^

I actually got more interested in Prince Derek(Antagonist) and Shahal story instead. :P My bad.What can I say? Its true that I always get attached to the tragic ones because I sympathies with them? Even I hate Prince Derek, mostly because of how he try to kill Prince Jed for the throne and also because of how badly he treat Shahal! But it was kinda his way of showing his love???? Seriously =_=||| He planned to trap Shahal by his side till death even if he can't have his heart.

Shahal hate him with all her heart. I thought at first it was because Derek rid her of all hopes of ever having a baby. It was.....but the main problem was that she fell in love with Derek(Shock Horror!!!), resulting in her being unable to bore any child. (Read the story to understand....cuz technically Shahal have no gender...) So....I was shocked when Shahal went to block the sword in order to save Derek's life yet that wonderful IDIOT went to commit suicide....leaving behind his son to be raised by Shahal and his wife. Shahal still loves Derek but maybe might end up with his son???

At first I pitied the King, only to find out in the end how much of a MEANIE he was! He made used of Derek and Jed to kill each other off! What the heck! No wonder the past Queen could never love him back! Cold hearted meanie!

It was rather sad that Prince/King June and Princess's love story was so short since the author was obviously rushing to end the series.. :( But it was sweet. :)

forgotten...

Does remembering helps? Will regaining memories of the past change the decisions I make in the future?

But the past seems so scary! With monsters inside, all trying to crawl out the closet that I locked and bound so tight. I don't want to remember. But not knowing.....makes me feel like I am missing out a part of me....

Lets just play pretend for a while more. I don't want this dream to end...