Too much wounds and scars

We are on different frequency

I feel like we are 2 pieces of magnet

forever repelling each other

I don't understand why you always have to talk in a way

that make me sound stupid and you are more superior

I don't understand why we can't have a conversation 

without you ending up rising your voice

and make it sound like the world is going to end

Why is it that everything has to always be about you?

Why do you think that you are the only one 

who would get tired, who would hurt?

You are so full of bitterness

That you end up poisoning everyone around you

Don't you realise you are pushing everyone away?

I don't expect you to support

but can you at least not push me

 further down this H*** hole I am already in?!!

What in the world is WRONG with you?

Why is it other people are forever full of flaws?

Why can't you see yours?

I hate you so much

It is hurting me

You can't see

I don't bother talking

This is going nowhere

I miss my life of independence

it may not be as comfortable or good

but I don't have to withstand verbal abuses everyday

I don't get pulled down by you and your hateful words

Out there, there are actually people who believe in me

who encourage me

who understand me

I don't expect you to understand me

I don't expect you to be loving and caring

But realise you are hurting everyone you love

Too much scars and wounds

will cause people to leave you

I at least hope that our relationship wouldn't be so bad

but I want to leave you

At this rate,

 I will just be dragged back to those dark days again.  

I don't want to ever go back anymore

The countryside house

Bye bye

Going to miss you.
The trees, the fields, the fresh air
the smile, the laughter, the friendliness

The bumpy ride out
The frog in the toilet bowl
The spiders everywhere
Lizards all about

Hand washing all the clothes
Drying in the sun
Early morning rays
calling us up

Million tiny stars
Soft moonbeams
Lighting our way home

The bonds of friendship

I want you to know

even if you leave

I will never forget you

because you have left an imprint in my heart

Even if in the coming future

we don't talk to each other anymore

I will still stalk you on Facebook

to check up on how you are doing

That even if you are miles away

Over the ocean and across the land

As long as you are happy and alive

under this beautiful blue sky

Know that I will be happy too

I know that everyone will sad to part words

but understand that the bonds of friendship

can't be broken that easily

Even if I can't be there

Even if there comes a day,

you forget my face

I will still forever miss you

Everything is in the hands of fate

and a bond that is managed by two

Both effort have to be made 

to maintain this burning flame

to keep it from dying out

But remember that everything 

goes through a passage of time

Everything fades

and turns into wonderful memories

Memories that made you who you are

Memories that brought you to today

As long as I have left footprints in your heart

that is more than enough

Definitely, even for me

It is tough to say goodbye

but you can't embrace your future

if you forever stay in the past

People come, People go

Every beginning is a new chapter in your life

For all of us,

It just the beginning

Just remember,

I will always be here

whenever you need me

Don't forget

All these beautiful memories

that we shared

though short but sweet

will stay in our hearts. 

Words that I will never say....

You were lost 

and you needed me

but I know not where you are 

Know that for you, 

no matter the fear and danger

I would still go and save you

Down the memory lane,

I could once again see your sweet smile

and bask in your joy and innocent

However, all too fast,

you run away,

Out of my sight

You disappeared

I was so scared

Where are you?

In search of you

All I had, was a head full of thoughts

and a heart full of you

Knowing that you are crying somewhere

all alone and scared

in need of me

Despite my fears and insecurities

Despite the fact I am just an ordinary girl

I would still fight against the whole world

If I have to

Just for you

Because you are precious

Too important to me

Someone I don't want to ever live without

Just thinking about it

I can't breathe

It was such a nightmare

when I realised you disappear

somewhere I don't know

Somewhere out of my reach

that I immediately woke up from this nightmare 

because I don't want to ever have to experience this feeling

ever again

A pain so unreal

yet makes you feel like your heart got ripped apart

and you can only scream and cry inside

Please....

I begging you

Don't leave 

Don't go

I need you so much

These words that I can never say...

Faraway Dream

Hours slipping by

Time ticking by

Minutes running out

Work piling up 

So much research to do

Never ending workload

A reality so much like a dream

but even dreams have an end

An end that is drawing near

Blue sky, so wide and free

Greenery and mountains everywhere

Night sky, full of stars

A life that I secretly wish for

yet the road is still long

thus it can only stay as a faraway dream