Too much wounds and scars

We are on different frequency

I feel like we are 2 pieces of magnet

forever repelling each other

I don't understand why you always have to talk in a way

that make me sound stupid and you are more superior

I don't understand why we can't have a conversation 

without you ending up rising your voice

and make it sound like the world is going to end

Why is it that everything has to always be about you?

Why do you think that you are the only one 

who would get tired, who would hurt?

You are so full of bitterness

That you end up poisoning everyone around you

Don't you realise you are pushing everyone away?

I don't expect you to support

but can you at least not push me

 further down this H*** hole I am already in?!!

What in the world is WRONG with you?

Why is it other people are forever full of flaws?

Why can't you see yours?

I hate you so much

It is hurting me

You can't see

I don't bother talking

This is going nowhere

I miss my life of independence

it may not be as comfortable or good

but I don't have to withstand verbal abuses everyday

I don't get pulled down by you and your hateful words

Out there, there are actually people who believe in me

who encourage me

who understand me

I don't expect you to understand me

I don't expect you to be loving and caring

But realise you are hurting everyone you love

Too much scars and wounds

will cause people to leave you

I at least hope that our relationship wouldn't be so bad

but I want to leave you

At this rate,

 I will just be dragged back to those dark days again.  

I don't want to ever go back anymore