Its not that I can't feel. Many people mistaken my aloofness for being cold and heartless.
But even I dun want to admit to myself thats actually, its the opposite.
I feel too much.
Thats why I am scared. These feelings, all these emotions, I can't handle them. They are too strong.
So I choose to runaway from them instead.
I chose loneliness for my companion instead. Its just too hard. Feelings would be my downfall. So I need to be aloof. To pretend. To protect....
Sounds cowardly. "To love like there is no tomorrow?" Sure I already spared that to those who I deemed worthy and who I know, would never do anything to hurt me or break my heart. :)
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