Honestly?!! This is like working already, hardly any holiday except one day of the week. Portfolio. Portfolio. PORTFOLIO.
Great. Just GREAT. =_= I haven't even contacted any companies or look through the list. Great. =_=... Resume. Cover letters. I know I can kiss the holidays goodbye but hello?! Can this not be just like another school day. Tomorrow I am meeting with my lecturer-in-charge....gosh...She is known to be strict even though she is nice. I am bad with strict lecturers, I always feel like I have to walk on egg shells around them. I become very scared and jumpy around them. I am seriously trying to quit this weird habit but dang...can't help it. Truthfully, they have a very sharp tongue, too straightforward and their presence is overwhelming.
I kinda finished my portfolio, still thinking about what to write for the "About" page and changing my "Home" Page..... I mean, the overall look is nice. But I feel frustrated with it. Maybe because the template is rather fixed and there aren't many style or designs I can do with it. Dang it. Feel like tearing everything down and redo again with something else. But that is not possible, I got to show her tomorrow. Hopefully she likes the style. But the more important should be that my future employee likes it.
Anyway having mood swing now, I am feeling emotional now. Don't ask me why. Its my inferiority complex at work again- my mind is forever degrading me. Dang it. I am trying to change it into a positive voice...I am worth this. Hello?!!! I mean from only knowing how to sew buttons, I can sew up a whole dress, even threading the machines! I really should be more confident of myself. :P I CAN DO THIS, I AM AWESOME, SMART, CAPABLE and RELIABLE. Hear me??? So SHUT UP, you stupid demeaning inner voice. In fact, go to a volume lower than mute, you degrading thing.
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