Loneliness...a deadly poison

I think my heart...just died of loneliness..

I feel small...I feel tiny..

it hurts so bad that I can't feel it anymore

that I am not there at all

it just died...just like that

I know that some things can't be helped

leaving me feeling nothing but emptiness

But pain and loneliness wouldn't leave me alone

Last time, I used to feel this way too

It hurts. A lot..

Like I am a little out or not right

I just want someone to care

but it seems that now,

but you all are just busy, I guess...

an invisible wall just separate me from everything

No time . This and That...

I like being myself

It maybe saddening but

I like that I am not lying to myself

don't tell me to fb u or sms u

not letting myself get caught up with my feelings

because what I want

that I change into someone else just to fit in with everyone

is to see you.
to talk to you.
to be able to feel you.

But still...I can't change the fact..
it gets lonely at times
it gets a bit saddening at times

You do care.

I know that.

but ,

I can't help wishing

for you to care even more

I just want to sleep on
pretend its all just a dream...
and run away from everything...

I am selfish...I know that.I don't want to be a burden but sometimes, I can't wishing to just disappear from this world for a little while..